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jackjanderson) wrote2019-05-05 09:15 pm
jackjanderson) wrote2019-05-05 09:15 pm
Entry tags:
Drugs, religion, football and BDSM
I managed two days on that 30 day challenge then lapsed. It's not a good start, is it? Although, well, somewhat extenuating circumstances courtesy of My Lady Samantha
While we're not technically in a 24/7-type relationship, over the last month or so while Samantha has been off and her health on the mend, things have been moving a little more in that direction. I'm certainly not complaining, it's a lot of fun but I do need to make sure if we keep making these steps, that we sit down and talk about it, set guidelines and boundaries rather than just falling into it the way we seem to be. For example, when do I get to express my dominant side? But the details are not especially relevant for this post, just the fact that it seems to be happening.
I have been spending maybe a little too much time on my tablet in the last week. I'm not sure how I ended up playing it, but I've got a little addicted to a 'magical farming' game called Decurse. We have a strict no electronics in the bedroom rule and I maybe tried to play the game in bed the other evening (I had crops to harvest). That earned me a thorough not-fun spanking. And it gets worse. Yesterday morning when Samantha & I were getting ready to head to the supermarket, I ignored her while playing my game. She took the tablet off me and if it hadn't been so expensive, I think she would have thrown it across the room then ordered me upstairs. She gave me another huge spanking, put me in chastity and a buttplug - and then we went to the supermarket. Yes, with the bondage in place.
I'd hoped that was all but no, the bondage stayed in place all day yesterday. Then this morning... well, Sunday mornings are when we play, except Samantha was still annoyed with both Lucy and me so it was punishments only and no fun. Lucy was tightly hogtied (which she loves) but with a wand vibrator tied in not quite the place and turned down too low so she was just frustrated and unable to orgasm, edged over and over with no relief. A nice lesson in not finishing what she started. As for me, the buttplug was replaced with a larger, vibrating on and bondage mitts locked onto my hands. Samantha tied me to a chair, turned the vibrating on but of course, with my dick locked into a plastic cage, I couldn't get hard. All I could do was watch while she teased Lucy and ignored me. Again, punishment fitting the 'crime'. She left it all in place all day, randomly turning the vibrator on - and gagged me when I started to whine. And with the bondage mitts in place I couldn't do anything all day.
I'm only allowed my tablet for an hour a day for the rest of the week and I've definitely learned my lesson about ignoring Samantha. She's not sure yet if she's going to let me watch the Man City Vs Leicester game tonight or not.
Speaking of football, Manchester City won the 2019 FA Women's Cup on Saturday with a 3-0 win over West Ham. Another match I wasn't allowed to watch. I wish I was more excited, I love Manchester City and women's football is grossly under-represented - and as a straight man I should thoroughly enjoy watching women play? But it doesn't. I support them, of course, and the juniors - the games just don't excite me the way the A team does.
Now, on to that already-neglected 30 day meme
Day 3 - Your views on drugs and alcohol
Like most things, they're both fine in moderation. I love a good beer and I do enjoy both smoking weed and edibles. I don't like being drunk or feeling like I'm not in control, I like the nice buzz from them though - both very pleasurable
Day 4 - Your views on religion
I'm a lapsed Catholic. I grew up in the church - Sunday school, altar boy, the works. I still believe in God but not in the strict formalness of Catholicism and there's so much of the teachings I disagree with (and I lot I still try to live by). I attend church on the main holidays but don't necessarily feel welcomed due to my family situation
While we're not technically in a 24/7-type relationship, over the last month or so while Samantha has been off and her health on the mend, things have been moving a little more in that direction. I'm certainly not complaining, it's a lot of fun but I do need to make sure if we keep making these steps, that we sit down and talk about it, set guidelines and boundaries rather than just falling into it the way we seem to be. For example, when do I get to express my dominant side? But the details are not especially relevant for this post, just the fact that it seems to be happening.
I have been spending maybe a little too much time on my tablet in the last week. I'm not sure how I ended up playing it, but I've got a little addicted to a 'magical farming' game called Decurse. We have a strict no electronics in the bedroom rule and I maybe tried to play the game in bed the other evening (I had crops to harvest). That earned me a thorough not-fun spanking. And it gets worse. Yesterday morning when Samantha & I were getting ready to head to the supermarket, I ignored her while playing my game. She took the tablet off me and if it hadn't been so expensive, I think she would have thrown it across the room then ordered me upstairs. She gave me another huge spanking, put me in chastity and a buttplug - and then we went to the supermarket. Yes, with the bondage in place.
I'd hoped that was all but no, the bondage stayed in place all day yesterday. Then this morning... well, Sunday mornings are when we play, except Samantha was still annoyed with both Lucy and me so it was punishments only and no fun. Lucy was tightly hogtied (which she loves) but with a wand vibrator tied in not quite the place and turned down too low so she was just frustrated and unable to orgasm, edged over and over with no relief. A nice lesson in not finishing what she started. As for me, the buttplug was replaced with a larger, vibrating on and bondage mitts locked onto my hands. Samantha tied me to a chair, turned the vibrating on but of course, with my dick locked into a plastic cage, I couldn't get hard. All I could do was watch while she teased Lucy and ignored me. Again, punishment fitting the 'crime'. She left it all in place all day, randomly turning the vibrator on - and gagged me when I started to whine. And with the bondage mitts in place I couldn't do anything all day.
I'm only allowed my tablet for an hour a day for the rest of the week and I've definitely learned my lesson about ignoring Samantha. She's not sure yet if she's going to let me watch the Man City Vs Leicester game tonight or not.
Speaking of football, Manchester City won the 2019 FA Women's Cup on Saturday with a 3-0 win over West Ham. Another match I wasn't allowed to watch. I wish I was more excited, I love Manchester City and women's football is grossly under-represented - and as a straight man I should thoroughly enjoy watching women play? But it doesn't. I support them, of course, and the juniors - the games just don't excite me the way the A team does.
Now, on to that already-neglected 30 day meme
Day 3 - Your views on drugs and alcohol
Like most things, they're both fine in moderation. I love a good beer and I do enjoy both smoking weed and edibles. I don't like being drunk or feeling like I'm not in control, I like the nice buzz from them though - both very pleasurable
Day 4 - Your views on religion
I'm a lapsed Catholic. I grew up in the church - Sunday school, altar boy, the works. I still believe in God but not in the strict formalness of Catholicism and there's so much of the teachings I disagree with (and I lot I still try to live by). I attend church on the main holidays but don't necessarily feel welcomed due to my family situation
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I don't drink often, and I never do drugs anymore. (Hey, we all did them in college - when I was in college.)
As for religion, I'm a person of faith, but no dogma. I grew up Southern Baptist, which I think is maybe worse than Catholic. (grin)
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I do hope you get to talk soon about the way your dynamic is going, when everyone is in a good enough mental state to talk about it. I've been on the end where a partner wasn't honest about the dynamic they wanted, and it took a lot of time and effort to get that relationship ended.
It turns out that I don't like the taste of alcohol, nor the smell of weed. We can both talk about the virtues of being a C&E Catholic (even though I'm not actually practicing any more.)