Flying To The Stars

Watching my wife in professor mode is doing remarkably kinky things to me

I want to be a naughty school boy, trousers around my ankles, bent over her desk and caned. Maybe even tied in place so I can't cover my ass - not that I'd want to, of course, but it's all part of the fantasy.

Sometimes, acting like a brat gets you the thorough spanking you've been hoping for. ( but sometimes )

Lucy is currently doing a Disney challenge, working her way through their back catalogue. Although she doesn't seem to be doing it in any obvious order which seems strange to me (I'd do it chronologically, if I were so inclined) but that's her prerogative.

This afternoon she watched Hercules. Strange as it may seem, this is one I'd seen before (took my son to the cinema to see it when came out) and I didn't think much of it then, I I'm honest so I'm not really sure why I ended up watching it with her today. Boredom, I suspect.

And I still didn't think much of it. Although, I have enough to say about it to be writing a blog post about it, apparently. Must be going stir-crazy here if I'm writing about a Disney movie! Having said that, it's certainly not the worst Disney movie I've ever seen either. What struck me about it was how unserious it is - and the comic book geek in me much more appreciated how Hercules here is depicted more as a super-hero rather then a classic mythical hero.

I'm guessing a lot of critics get snobbish because it doesn't stick to the original myths of Heracles. But does anyone want to see Zeus as he is depicted in myths - as a horny old bloke who fucks everyone but Hera (well, ok, yes - lets meake that 'does anyone want their children to see that movie?!) But who really expects a huge amount of original source material accuracy from a Disney movie?

What it is, however, is fun. It's hilarious and has a nice love story. Megara (or Meg if you want) is a great character. Nice change after all those fair princesses. Hades is also a great villain and I also liked his two stooges.

The movie's downfall was the music. None of the songs are memorable. How many years after Frozen is everyone still singing Let It Go? And I can't remember a single song from a movie that I finished a couple of hours ago.

I am very proud with how well my girls are coping with the lockdown right now.

I know Lucy is really struggling due to her routines being off - she can't go to the gym or any of her support groups. We can't go on any of regular dates (me/Samantha, me/Lucy, Samantha/Lucy, all of us - we have weekly dates). But we're taking longer walks with the dogs each morning, spending more time outside in the garden. We're also having a lot more sex. Twofold - life-affirming in scary, death-filled times, but also the BDSM element helps calm her mental health issues. I'm sure there's some psychological reason but all we know/care about, is that it works.

Mental health wise, Lucy is struggling. I know she's hallucinating more and she's telling us that they're saying both Samantha and I are already dead, she's seeing us as dead. Her anxiety is high and her mood is low. I can't even begin to imagine how terrifying it must be for her. All we can do is support her the best we can. I just want to hold her, and she just wants to clean.

Samantha, on outward appearances, is coping remarkably. She's adjusted swiftly to lecturing remotely and is continuing to support her colleagues and students. She's a shining light. She is, however, having terrible nightmares and, similar to her trauma last year, is utterly afraid either Lucy or I are going to die, and doesn't want to let either of us out of her sight.

Me? Well my trauma response is numbness, supporting the people I love and eating my bodyweight in carbohydrates and sugar. I'll deal with everything after the end of times and I know my girls are safe

I managed two days on that 30 day challenge then lapsed. It's not a good start, is it? Although, well, somewhat extenuating circumstances courtesy of My Lady Samantha

While we're not technically in a 24/7-type relationship, over the last month or so while Samantha has been off and her health on the mend, things have been moving a little more in that direction. I'm certainly not complaining, it's a lot of fun but I do need to make sure if we keep making these steps, that we sit down and talk about it, set guidelines and boundaries rather than just falling into it the way we seem to be. For example, when do I get to express my dominant side? But the details are not especially relevant for this post, just the fact that it seems to be happening.

I have been spending maybe a little too much time on my tablet in the last week. I'm not sure how I ended up playing it, but I've got a little addicted to a 'magical farming' game called Decurse. We have a strict no electronics in the bedroom rule and I maybe tried to play the game in bed the other evening (I had crops to harvest). That earned me a thorough not-fun spanking. And it gets worse. Yesterday morning when Samantha & I were getting ready to head to the supermarket, I ignored her while playing my game. She took the tablet off me and ( what happened next is under the cut to spare those who don't want to read it )

I'm only allowed my tablet for an hour a day for the rest of the week and I've definitely learned my lesson about ignoring Samantha. She's not sure yet if she's going to let me watch the Man City Vs Leicester game tonight or not.

Speaking of football, Manchester City won the 2019 FA Women's Cup on Saturday with a 3-0 win over West Ham. Another match I wasn't allowed to watch. I wish I was more excited, I love Manchester City and women's football is grossly under-represented - and as a straight man I should thoroughly enjoy watching women play? But it doesn't. I support them, of course, and the juniors - the games just don't excite me the way the A team does.

Now, on to that already-neglected 30 day meme

Day 3 - Your views on drugs and alcohol
Like most things, they're both fine in moderation. I love a good beer and I do enjoy both smoking weed and edibles. I don't like being drunk or feeling like I'm not in control, I like the nice buzz from them though - both very pleasurable

Day 4 - Your views on religion
I'm a lapsed Catholic. I grew up in the church - Sunday school, altar boy, the works. I still believe in God but not in the strict formalness of Catholicism and there's so much of the teachings I disagree with (and I lot I still try to live by). I attend church on the main holidays but don't necessarily feel welcomed due to my family situation

I'm always happy to talk about my girls and I think most of you have been around here long enough to know our situation but for those who don't, here we go.

I am in a polyamorous triad with two women - my wife Samantha and our girlfriend Lucy, although we generally think of her as being part of the marriage as well. We've exchanged rings and if the opportunity ever arose for a marriage to include another person, we'd jump straight away. The three of us have been together for the best part of a decade. Samantha and I have been married for almost 15 years, were dating for 5 years before that and have known each other since the late 90s.

I met Lucy in 2010, we had a sexual bdsm relationship for a couple of months. She knew I was married. Samantha watched a number of times and also joined in. We started spending time together outside of that, and Samantha & I realised we were both developing feelings for Lucy. We sat down and talked about it, just the two of us and then with Lucy. 6 months later, Lucy moved in with us. That was in 2011.

If there's anything else you'd like to know about it, feel free to ask.

It's been a while since I logged in or updated or even thought about the dreamwidth and I wanted to ask you apologise. If you read Samantha's journal I then you'll be know what's going on been going on the for the last few months. And for those who don't, her dad died unexpectedly at the beginning of the year and she had what she's calling 'a mental health crisis'

With a lot of support from myself and Lucy, our doctor, the local mental health team and bereavement counselling she's on the road to recovery. And you have no idea how much of a relief that is. I'm not too proud to say I was scared I was going to lose her 😢 Lucy has been amazing throughout; I was concerned the stress was going to trigger an episode of her own but it's like her nurturing instincts kicked in and took over.

In the last maybe 10 days, things are returning to what resembles normal around here. Samantha is still signed off work and it's been agreed that she will be back in September for the new school year. We're finding our groove again and I feel like I have her back; my wife, my lover, my dominant, my best friend

The three of us are taking a long weekend break to Amsterdam this weekend. I think we all deserve to get away, enjoy each others company and press reset. I'm looking forward to visiting a few museums, exploring the red light district, indulging in some coffee shop treats and... Well to be honest some romantic walks along the canals.

I'm currently finally setting up the tablet I got for Christmas so any app recommendations you may have would be great.
So far I've got Facebook, twitter, duolingo, BBC sport, Man City app, good reads, Spotify

For now, I still have over 1000 unread emails to catch up on and then I'll be back to Dreamwidth. Samantha has 'highly suggested' Lucy and I come back to social media...

Samantha not-so-gently prompted me to post this, she's curious about some of my stats. Specifically the age of the music I listen to since I do tend to listen to Classical and Opera. Admittedly this year I've listened to a lot of 2Cellos & David Garrett so those may be older pieces but they're more recent productions - I don't know which date it would take for the tracks

I also, this year, discovered jazz thanks to a Spotify recommendation.

I spent 1309 minutes listening to music on Spotify - so about 22 hours.
My most played artist was 2Cellos - I listened to them for 1 hour
My top artists are 2Cellos, Russell Watson, Razvan Stoica, David Garrett and Royal Philharmonic Orchestra
My top played songs are Somewhere Over The Rainbow (really?), Near Light, Nessun Dorma, Rodeo and First Gymnopedie.
My top genres are classical, jazz and latin. I am surprised that opera isn't there.
The oldest song I listened to was Flamenco Sketches by Miles Davis, recorded in 1959. I almost feel I need to apologise to Samantha for how that wasn't as exciting as she thought it was going to be

The website did give me an exciting little graphic but I don't know how to share it - it only gives me Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and... something that looks like a phone in a speech bubble. No idea what that was.

I also see the Goodreads Year In Review has been posted. That'll give me something to talk about tomorrow. I'm also thinking of going through the friending memes and communities and seeing who's out there that might be worth adding to this motley crew of mine.

But for now, the girls are saying something about bed and I'm thinking that's a nice idea.

aka What I'm Reading Wednesday

When All Hell Breaks Loose: Stuff You Need to Survive When Disaster Strikes by Cody Lundin

My rating: 4 of 5 stars
Bookshelves: adventure, reference, social-sciences, survival

This book gets you thinking about your priorities in various different scenarios, some of which are gruesome and antipathic. The options are explained and you're taught how to deal with them. The point this book strikes is that nothing is impossible if you are prepared and determined. In showing you how and why to prepare this book improves your chances, you have to do the rest.

Next up is When Technology Fails: A Manual for Self-Reliance & Planetary Survival by Matthew Stein. I appear to be in the mood to prepare for the end of the world. Which, considering the current state of affairs and politics and all that shit... maybe it's not such a bad idea?

My girls are having a home-spa weekend so I escaped the house for the day today and spent a wonderfully relaxing day, sitting on the shores of a local lake, fishing. I didn't catch a single thing which doesn't bother me - and besides, it's a catch and return lake

It's the act of fishing I enjoy. Sitting out in the glorious sunshine and fresh air, being by the water, a cold beer in hand, music playing softly in my ears. I dozed off for a while, I read for a bit, I did a crossword. I watched the fish in the lake. It's almost meditative, being able to just let my mind wander. I met fellow fishermen, made some new friends, saw some amazing 20lbers reeled in. There's a sense of camaderie, of adventure, of challenge.

Most of all it's fun, I've caught the sun and I avoided being exfoliated or masked by Samantha and Lucy!